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I just had the weirdest ephiphany tonight. Confusion? Relief? I always tell people I don't know what I want right now in terms of relationships. I don't know. I don't know if I want to be in a serious relationship right now or if I just want some heated fling. Sure, I want to feel loved. Everyone does. I'm not that big of an icy bitch, please. But no, I don't want to be tied down. I just want to have fun. Not necessarily debaucherous fun, but I want to just run around and do whatever with someone I enjoy being with. Let's go to an amusement park and ride roller coasters all day until we can't walk anymore and are seeing stars. And if we end up making out by the end of the night, so be it. But do I want a boyfriend right now? I'm not exactly sure. It's a scary thought, falling in love. Just the thought of being with someone who I might end up marrying, depending on how everything goes, is fucking SCARY. Sure, the idea of marriage, in general, sounds pleasant but way way waaaaay later. Most guys I know right now don't want a serious relationship, and I understand because...well, it's understandable. And that's why I'm always saying I don't want a serious relationship right now either. No girl wants to scare a guy off. So I say, "Sure, yeah, let's just fool around and have a grand old time. Whoooeeee, sex!" But deep down inside I'm praying that he won't ever get bored with me and move on. Clinginess makes my skin crawl, though. So, I fake indifference and flirt with him like he's my best guy friend and not some guy whom I want to hold me forever and ever. *I* want the upper hand. *I* always want to be the one to keep him wanting more. But right now, yeah sure, let's just have fun and flirt and see where this carefree roller coaster takes us. I guess the worst that could happen is barfing up all those tasty corn dogs and ICEE's.
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[07 Feb 2008|01:55pm] |
FIERCE, D D-L. I love you.
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[08 Aug 2007|03:52pm] |
Crossroads School kids are awesome. Spoiled and artsy and crazy into drugs (well...some of them), but who isn't nowadays??? But the school, in general, is amazing too. It's like Montessori 2.0
That is all.
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[25 Jul 2005|06:32pm] |
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Tell me what you really think of me. Be honest, be brutal, what-have-you. Anonymous comments are welcome. Ready, set...GO get me a drink.
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[01 Jul 2005|01:01am] |
Okay, so from now on, I'm going the "Friends Only" route (except for the occasional picture posts) because I'm V.I.P like that.*
Anyway, I was mulling over the evolution of Goldfish, because I was and am still eating a rather big bowl of them. Goldfish have come a long way. You have your original, which have a minimal flavor, but they've since transitioned into cheddar, parmesan, pizza, pretzel, cheese trio, reduced fat, and calcium-enriched. (The last two are for all you health-conscious people.) But they've also changed sizes and shapes. You now have baby Goldfish, giant Goldfish, Goldfish sandwiches, Goldfish crisps, flavor blasted Goldfish. Heck, even Goldfish colors, which come in all shades of the rainbow.
That little tid-bit was brought to you by Thoughts-of-the-Moment by Moi.
In other news, I was kind of skimming over my past entries (ala Senior year of high school) & I don't think, at the time, I realized how CRAZY I was. Seriously, it was like emo rants everywhere. Ridiculous, I know. I have one helluva lot of fantastic friends though who supported me through this & that. I love you & thank you.
*That was not meant to sound pretentious/elitist in any way.............Ah, who am I kidding, of course it was. Have a nice day.
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Oh yeah, one more thing for all you SNL fans (and more specifically Fred Armsen):
I just had to show this, because, yeah, I laughed.
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